on: Tuesday, Nov. 20, 2001
@: 12:30 a.m.

wedgwood - would you?

ok long story short (just typed shit which is kinda appropriate)

Friday night - me hugely sobbing my eyes out on Leza's shoulder in disabled toilet at shag! saying that i can't cope any more and other stuff that i don't really want to write lets just say that i have never ever ever been upset and i scared myself and Leza by how upset and i was and if i'd gone thru with what i was thinking this diary may never have been updated again and certainly wouldn't be being updated now

2 am - am chatting to my housemates having refused to explain to tracy why i was upset (well, i didn't refuse but told her i didn't want to talk about it) and tracy over hears me saying that i don't find her very supportive by which i meant i find her hard to talk to and she never talks to me normally let alone when i'm upset. she says some comment designed to let me know she heard and twenty minutes later comes in (for all of this she was in the duty room i was in the kitchen with Elli and Big Rach) in her coat i went are you ok she went no i'm really angry and stormed out saying she was going for a walk - lets just bear in mind i'd been sobbing my heart out for ages and had never cried like that before ever -

next morning i knock on the door and i have no clue if shes in there altho i think i may have heard her come in around four and shes very short with me tells me shes still very angry and we have loads of shit to discuss at the meeting etc but as usual won't discuss it with me.

go to Sams and i make a slightly sarcastic comment and she threatens to walk out. we are both sitting there looking daggers at each other and everyones picked up we're not happy and i feel guilty as i think i'm ruining Sams birthday

Trudi and Tracy go in the duty room and i've been battling tears since she threatened to walk out so asK Emma to take me home get to the door to Sams burst into tears and it all comes out

She rings the duty mobile and tells gwyn that i'm crying my eyes out and shaking so she will be with me and Gwyn comes down on sunday morning to cover and i tell him i don't want Tracy again ever. he goes to speak to her and she quits

i have Kim today

so thats the new soap opera in town - wedgwood - would you?

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