on: Thursday, Nov. 15, 2001
@: 10:49 p.m.

some shout outs, a rant, and memories

loads of pissy shit going on with my housemates again, joy oh joy!! its nothing i've not been thru before with other able-bodied supposed friends but still it pissed me off partly because it happened again - its happened at college, i'm pretty sure it happened at dgs and it might've even happened at hagbourne couldn't tell you tho as i can't remember every incident that happened that far back

it pissed me off even more here tho because i'd've thought people that were like 19 and 20 would be mature enough to realise certain facts but obviously not

what am i talking about? Wanjiku (student warden) is arranging a christmas party/mixer thing for everyone in our block and also people from other blocks in wedgwood but no other halls. she was on about having it in this flat or her flat which is the next floor up. but the general consequensus (big word!) is that we'll have the party in all the flats in this block and charge a fiver for getting in and booze.

obviously i would only be able to stay in this flat (well, i could make it up to the next flat but it would knacker me out and i wouldn't have my wheels and the idea of being around drunken people not in wheels scares me). and i'm not putting a fiver in to stay in this flat!! fuck off thats crap!!!! if i can't join in completely i won't go i said - apparently if i don;t put the money in i'm gonna have to stay in my room all night says bitch face susie.

i'm gonna speak to Wanjiku and tell her i'm not prepared to have the party held here - if it is held here i'm gonna make a formal complaint to security and get it shut down - my housemates already think i'm being a bitch so i may as well properly act like one too!!

do they have any idea what its like for me to sit here in my wheelchair day in, day out? to have to have someone here 24/7 to be able to do things and go places? to have spent the entire summer sitting at home on my bum depressed as hell and wanting to kill myself because my physical health is important to the evil bitch social worker but not my quality of life? to have to sit and watch instead of joining in? to really want to go somewhere but can't because you can't get in, or because you can get in but you wouldn't be able to go to the loo? to plan a really cool night out and have it ruined because of the damn wheelchair? to wonder what you'd do if you could walk properly and run for just one day?

ho hum, rant over! please sign my guestbook e-mail me (delete the REMOVETHIS) or leave me a note (i don't know what the url for that is, but theres a nice little link on the page somewhere!) and let me know what you think i should do? am i over reacting.

what the heck everyone else has put pleas for people to a href="http://jewel-girl.signmyguestbook.com">sign my guestbook e-mail me (delete the REMOVETHIS) or leave me a note lately so i will too!!

oh before i forget, a few shout outs to some people.

Sarah - hi hon welcome to diaryland! (go check her out ppl shes my best mate for like 17 years!!)

Lois - some (((hugs))) because it sounds like you need 'em

and last but definitely not least! Sair - can you believe how good friends we are? this girl is amazing! thanks so much for letting me rant and all the advice tonight

so shout outs over with on to other news.

felt majorly shitty again today so docs for me on monday me thinks!!!

its official, for the first time in like three weeks i made it to all my lectures this week - big wow (!)

didn't go to R&B as planned due to both me and L feeling shitty

the girls were playing music tonight and they played "no limits" by 2unlimited. that brought back so memories! i remember when i was little (i don;t know how old but i think it was the year Nanny turned 70) we went to Haven (isle of wight i think) and in the disco one night they played that song and she was there dancing to it and doing that arm thing that your meant to do

*demonstrates arm thing then realises no one can see!*

they called her "the groovy granny" and played it for her every night. then a while later (months) it was her 70th birthday and me and ben got it played for her at her party and she was definitely dancing to it and i think her friends were too!!

its true what they say on Fox FM - memories are made of hits

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